sad dirty elder millennial commie seeks friends for virtual coffee

[marycuntrarian]

Name: Mary Cuntrarian or Kat, my real nickname. She/They

Age: near 40

I mostly post about: Right now my journal is new so I'm not exactly sure but I haven't written anything since about 2015. I'm mostly posting stream of consciousness thoughts and things that won't leave my brain like themes in fiction and in life. I might make my journal friends-only soon since that's a thing I can do and write things that are more personal because my life is sort of a mess at the moment and I need to write it out. I'm an artist and I've been putting a lot of effort into my art career recently so I know I'll be writing about my process and struggles there.

My hobbies are: I dabble in all kinds of painting and crafts, but mostly watercolor and ink. I crochet, do some embroidery, I'm relearning web design and have started making web pages as art and for fun. I used to play more video games but nothing has caught my interest lately but I have played Disco Elysium, Fallout 76, Stardew Valley, Breath of the Wild, some GTA Online, Animal Crossing (Pocket Camp, but it counts!) and other random rpgish games. I also have been playing a lot of Dungeons and Dragons lately, and I love coming up with characters! Trying to get back into writing, right now just blogging but maybe fiction and poetry soon. I don't know if I'll write fanfic, I have started making icons again and I think I'll have fully regressed into my old LJer self if I write fanfic again. Which might not be BAD.

My fandoms are: Currently I have some hyperfixations but I hesitate to call them fandoms in the old fashioned way. I'm less obsessed with things than I used to be but I will say my old fangirl tendencies have popped up a little again.

Right now I'm into The Matrix movies including Resurrections, Neo/Trinity might make me read fic again and I'm also watching Sense8 for the first time and I'm really liking it so I'm in a Wachowski Sisters kinda mood.

I love AEW wrestling and I'll list my favorite wrestlers for you if you care. lol

I'm also watching Legends of Tomorrow and almost done with it, pretty into it and I love Constantine.

I recently read the Southern Reach series and could talk about those books forever. Jeff Vandermeer and Edward Carey are my favorite living authors with Shirley Jackson being my favorite classic writer.

Music I'm fannish about is Lord Huron and Tyler the Creator. I'm into indie hip hop and I've gotten into riot grrrl music for the first time recently.

I'm looking to meet people who: Just want to talk and connect? No bullshit, just sharing random cool thoughts and ideas. I'm a stoner, can we start an internet blunt rotation? lol

I've seen a lot of people saying this online recently but I'm looking for that old internet feeling again. I made a Neocities page, I want to talk to people about shit again and not just tweet a few sentences and hope it gets likes.

My posting schedule tends to be: Sporadic as of late but I'm going to post more now that I'm here. I was posting on tumblr here and there but I felt like there were no conversations to be had there. I'm aiming for once a week at least.

When I add people, my dealbreakers are: No bigotry, no terfs, no AI worshippers, MAGA-heads or generally fuckery. I'm basically a dirty commie and I'm not too afraid to talk about it so if that makes you uncomfortable oh well.

Before adding me, you should know: I'm currently struggling quite a bit in life, lost a lot of my agency and control because of lack of money, lost my apartment, and my general sense of self so I might talk about that at times. I'm disabled and queer, neurodivergent and cannot find a job to save my life and currently live with my partner and their family which is rough. If you don't want to hear about my personal bullshit from time to time, I'm probably not the person to follow.

Comments

[maevedarcy]

omg hi! I know you talked about many things about you but can I just say how amazing it is to find a Sense8 enjoyer in the wild? My journal is mostly fannish but I occasionally share some personal posts. I'd love to share my blunt with you and chat!
(also, if you end up liking Sense8, you should definitely join thecluster a Sense8 fan community a few people and I are trying to revive)

[marycuntrarian]

Hi there! I did see you here before and I saw the community pop up on someone's profile hehe I'm literally on episode four right now but I feel like I did watch the first season loooong ago and now I'm really into it and wish it could come back! I also just want more stuff from the Wachowskis in general right now.

Adding you!

[finch]

Hi and welcome! I'm jackdaw over on discord, and I'm going to go ahead and add you if you don't mind.

[marycuntrarian]

Hello, yay! Adding you back! :)

[gender_euphoric]

I think we might make good dreamwidth friends. I’m Jay, a queer trans guy in my 40s. I have somewhat disabling mental illness but I do the best I can. :)

[marycuntrarian]

Hello! Nice to meet you! Oh I also have plenty of mental illness and I'm the same. There's nothing wrong with that. hehe I'll add you now!

[commodityfetishx]

i think we would get along! i am also an elder enby nuerodivergent millenial stuck living with family after running out of money lol. i'm a leftist /anarch*st not a commie but i do tend to get along with commies. i just post about my life, which is a lot the woes of living with family as a 36yo teenager. i do some artistic things as well but don't really post about it besides in passing, i make terrariums, patches, shrinky dinks, sometimes music. this is a new journal i made this summer but i've been on dw for years after migrating from lj, i've never really taken a break from journaling since i was like 15. i'll hear about your bullshit if u wanna hear about mine!

[marycuntrarian]

Hello! I'm sorry you're in the same boat but it's nice to know I'm not alone. I'm probably more on the Anarchism level tbh I just never know what to call myself most days and Leftist never seems to cut it.

Ha, I feel like a teenager too and it really sucks most days but hey you only live once might as well be young twice! :P

I'm so bad at keeping a journal in real life but when I was on Livejournal back in the day I definitely wrote all the time. I should write more privately but at least this will get me back in the swing of things, hopefully. Adding you now! :)

[adore]

Hello! I've got similar personal bullshit (recently laid off, living with family) and I like Shirley Jackson too. I'm mostly a k-pop and k-drama fangirl but I enjoy seeing other people talk about what they love even when I don't know or love it too. You can check out my journal and see if you think we'd get along ^^

[marycuntrarian]

Hello! Honestly I've been thinking of watching some k-dramas but I don't know where to start! Do you have any recs?

Adding you! :)

[adore]

I can absolutely rec you some k-dramas! What kinds of themes do you usually like when you watch shows?

Adding you back :D

[marycuntrarian]

That's a great question! lol Um, I like shows that are weird? Are there any kdramas like Twin Peaks? haha But if not, I do tend to like a fun crime show. Or just any intrigue/thriller type thing.

[adore]

I looked at descriptions of the shows you said you're a fan of in your post, as well as a description of Twin Peaks. If the vibes are mind-bendy + mystery I think you might enjoy My Lovely Liar. A woman who can hear lies meets a man who nobody trusts. MyDramaList's description says her power of hearing lies doesn't work on him, but that's not accurate; it's more like the things he says are the truth but don't sound truthful.

Most of the k-dramas I watch are romance-first and this is no different; I can't speak to the quality of the mystery. But I enjoyed watching them gradually growing from mistrust to trust with each other, and how much of that was happening in their heads.

[marycuntrarian]

I'm not against romance at all! :) That sounds really cool, where do you watch Kdramas if you don't mind me asking?

[adore]

I watch most of my k-dramas on Viki (by Rakuten, the same folks who made the e-reader Kobo). It's a more affordable subscription that Netflix or Prime (both of those have a selection of k-dramas too though). And it's entirely Asian dramas which consist of almost all that I watch. I just checked, it looks like only the first couple of episodes of My Lovely Liar are free on Viki so let me know if you have other streaming services, and I can rec you a k-drama that's already available to you on those.

[marycuntrarian]

Okay, I'll check those out, thank you! :D

[supernutjapan]

Just popping in to say, it's nice to see someone mention Sense8. Love that show :)
Wouldn't be averse to friending though, if interested.

[marycuntrarian]

Hello! I'm only on the 5th episode now but I do think it might become one of my favorites!

Adding! I used to be a huge Supernatural fan as well but I fell off before the show ended. My partner and I did start a rewatch of it recently but fell off of that haha I still want to rewatch/finish the whole series one day!

Elder Millennial *waves*

[n0xx]

Hi! D&D playing elder millennial here and love creating characters, too. :) Would like to add you, if thats ok, to see if we're a good fit?

Re: Elder Millennial *waves*

[marycuntrarian]

Hello! Yay D&D! Are you playing any games right now?

Adding!

Re: Elder Millennial *waves*

[n0xx]

Huzzah! I've added you back :)

Currently playing a homebrew D&D campaign with a small group of close friends, our party is level nine. (I've rolled a Halfling Monk.) We try for weekly sessions, but it doesn't always happen. But we've done one shots together; I've played a Half-Elf Sorceress and a Half-Elf Rogue.

What about you? When you play D&D, what characters do you roll?

I'm also an avid World of Warcraft player. I joke I've played the game for eighteen years and absolutely don't act like it. *laughs*

You've mentioned a bunch of games in your post. What's your current fixation?

Re: Elder Millennial *waves*

[marycuntrarian]

So recently I've been playing a few D&D games over discord (I found them on Roll20 or Start Playing) because I really want to find the right party, plus I just love playing different characters. I did drop one game because it was so rudimentary and boring but I'm playing 3 characters right now.

Fernanda Porter, a Minotaur who is a Barbarian Storm Herald. She's a blonde mommy babe who is basically Jennifer Coolidge if she were Thor. She's in a game trying to take down Vecna in the Shadowfell, I believe.

Then I'm playing Fiona Freehops, a Harengon who is a Druid, just Level 3. She's in a cozy game where we do a lot of roleplaying and she's like a hippy peace loving gal but who has a past that mirrors a lot of Watership Down.

And then I'm playing The One They Call Death, a Goliath Barbarian who is Path of the Wild Heart, I think it's called. So they can channel different animal spirits and use their powers. She's like a seven foot tall Daria Morgendorffer, and she only really likes animals and hates people.

Right now D&D probably is my current fixation as far as games go. I haven't been into any video games lately, nothing seems to hold my attention for long. I played the hell out of Fallout 76, for like a year, and then just kinda dropped it from burnout. Are you into any games right now?

Re: Elder Millennial *waves*

[n0xx]

Fernanda Porter, a Minotaur who is a Barbarian Storm Herald. She's a blonde mommy babe who is basically Jennifer Coolidge if she were Thor. She's in a game trying to take down Vecna in the Shadowfell, I believe.

Then I'm playing Fiona Freehops, a Harengon who is a Druid, just Level 3. She's in a cozy game where we do a lot of roleplaying and she's like a hippy peace loving gal but who has a past that mirrors a lot of Watership Down.

And then I'm playing The One They Call Death, a Goliath Barbarian who is Path of the Wild Heart, I think it's called. So they can channel different animal spirits and use their powers. She's like a seven foot tall Daria Morgendorffer, and she only really likes animals and hates people.

These characters sound amazing! I love how distinct they are in their own right. They must be so much fun to play!

Right now D&D probably is my current fixation as far as games go. I haven't been into any video games lately, nothing seems to hold my attention for long. I played the hell out of Fallout 76, for like a year, and then just kinda dropped it from burnout. Are you into any games right now?

What was Fallout 76 like?

And no, just WoW and D&D.

[llumdelluna]

I'm Laura, 25, from Spain. I'm part of the people who miss the old internet feeling, and that's why I'm here.

I'm looking for more people to add to my flist, because the internet can be a lonely place. We share some hobbies and interests (I craft and do a lot of journaling using mixed media techniques mostly), and some of my favorite videogames include Stardew Valley, Fallout series and random RPGs as well.

Would you like to give it a try?

[marycuntrarian]

Hi there! I love mixed media, it just always run out of media to use! haha I love to collage, my icon is one of my original collages. :)

Adding you back!

[llumdelluna]

Yay, thanks! Also I love your icon, it's a beautiful collage! <3

[marycuntrarian]

Thank you!! <3

[keplers_angels]

We're already newly acquainted but it was fun to read yours having just done my own one of these [which ever of the last couple recent days]

[tcpip]

Comrade, I am interested in your ideas!

[marycuntrarian]

Hello, nice to meet you! Adding now :)

[darkwillows]

Mind if I join the party too? I’m looking for cool people like yourself to add and read.

[marycuntrarian]

Of course! :D Adding back!

[huxleyenne]

Ooooh yeah! Tell me, who is your favorite AEW wrestler and why is it Timeless Toni Storm? /shameless projecting

My significant other, for better or worse, got me hooked on WWE two years ago. He correctly used The Shield to lure me in, and now I'm on AO3 proliferating wrestling yaoi because I don't know what else to do with my life, LOL. I'm not mad, though. It killed seven years worth of writer's block. SEVEN. How the fuck? *bashes head against wall*

Anyway, neurodivergent queer commies who lived through the 90s, watch wrestling, and have dabbled in gaming are absolutely my people, so I'd love to be friends if you're down. <3

[marycuntrarian]

I literally wear a "Toni Time" friendship bracelet I made all the time. lmao I need to make a new "Timeless" one but I ran out of alphabet beads. lol

Yes, she's my favorite! But also Willow Nightingale is high up there for me as well right now. I made a shrine on my website for my favorite wrestlers, it does need to be updated though. I can't handle anything WWE right now because of the um, right wingness of it all, but I do admire some of their wrestlers. I want to get into New Japan wrestling it's just so hard to find to watch.

I adore Jon Moxley and I wish I had been around for his Dean Ambrose years.

Adding you now! :)

[huxleyenne]

LOL, I just guessed my own fave. Great minds think alike then. Seriously, though, Toni's awesome. I haven't seen much AEW. Juggling streaming services is a pain. _@

I can't handle anything WWE right now because of the um, right wingness of it all, but I do admire some of their wrestlers.

I feel that 100% and you're not wrong. It's putrid, and I can't watch as faithfully as I used to, nor do I buy anyone's merch, problematic fave included; however, I can only deny myself so much. I more or less show up for every thrilling installment of the Seth/Roman yaoi divorce drama and the women's roster (Evolution 2 was this year's best PLE, don't care what anyone says).

It's likely I would watch a lot less if my partner weren't a big fan since the Attitude Era, though even he's sick of the putrid politics. The product was so much better just two years ago, ugggggh. It's kinda how I spiraled out into writing unhinged wrestling yaoi in the first place, LOL. If the company won't do right by me, I'll just write the stories I want to see instead.

I wish I was around for Mox's Ambrose years, too. I'm still relatively new to wrestling. I went to the school of YouTube to educate myself on quite a few of these jerks in tights who captivate me. It's something I share with B, so it's still important to me, even though it's tough to deal with right now.

*adds back*

[marycuntrarian]

I understand! They do have all of AEW on HBO Max now, just in case you wanted to catch up some time. ;)

No I understand being obsessed with something that's being produced in a shitty way. lol I just never watched it so I figured I might as well not start now, haha.

[aprilangeldollbaby]

You seem really interesting, and we have a lot in common. Want to be friends? ♥

[batlatte]

Hi, you seem very cool, I'm trying to get into posting here again, i added you <3

[marycuntrarian]

Hello, adding back! :)