i mean lots of complaining that it hasn't rained

[keplers_angels]

Name: Keplers_angels. I answer to Trudy, but it's not my name.

Age: 46

I mostly post about: I mostly write to make myself real. And to stun people with my wordery. To give consolation. (or wound) And to figure it out.... Been journaling a long time so there are shifts in topic climate but generally it's a lot of poetry and poeticity on sex and angst with smatterings of perimenopause, breastlessness, and feminism, interpersonal relationships... what to do with my life?! existential and metaphysical drama.... I don't shy away from much-- I come to confess. There will be adult content. There may be mathematics, politics, pain, complaints and exhortations, poems and poems and poems and lots of complaining that it hasn't rained. (In general though, my posts are usually much more readable than this is.)

My hobbies are: This. This is my hobby. Outside of work, which is a whole thing, this. I write. I try to make myself submit poems to stuff. I read books, I waste untold hours on fb, I'm learning to sext, I practice yoga, I over analyze things and am pretentious and arrogant except when I'm in joyful denial or drowning in insecurity. In short, I tell the truth about myself -brutally- but I'm not a very reliable narrator.... what was the question again?

My fandoms are: I don't fandom here. But I lived very happily in Man From UNCLE fandom for most of a decade. It saved my life. Sometimes I'll still do an erotic little fandom vignette but fandom's not why I'm here.

I'm looking to meet people who: write similar, or completely different, kinds of things. Mostly I'm looking for my early aughts LJ experience back. I want people who write with emotion and who will read and comment on my posts as I will read and comment on theirs. If you're not going to read your friends page then I don't want you on mine.

My posting schedule tends to be: In 2025 it's been pretty every-day-ish. (at least weekly, usually more) Which pleases me and I hope it will last. I am not *as* punctual with my friends page and comments but I always catch up-- weekly give-or-take.

When I add people, my dealbreakers are: stalking. violating my privacy or anonymity. I'm not opposed in principle to friends of different belief systems to mine but of course, we all have limits, and I'm not going to censor my own posts to avoid those kinds of things. Content wise, if you post something I can't abide, I'll unfriend. But I don't like my echo-chamber to be too constrictive.

Comments

[claire_chan]

Hi Trudy! *wave-wave* How are you? ^_^ I've been in some of the LJ comms in the later oughts! I liked laughing at customers_suck and fandom_wank but I tried hard not to get too upset with the other people there.

I am Claire-chan. I am a fangirl determined academic, and I have a fun paradigm in place to determine how old I am depending on what part of the year it is... meaning I am 36.
I am trying to attend the University whenever I can afford it. I got in, but it's kind of far away and I don't have a lot of money to go anywhere. So I am hanging in there until I can get a good ride.

I float around my friendslist... the latest thing on it is talking about how the Sino-Platonic Papers are announcing the publication of its three-hundred-and-sixty-third issue:

“Xizi Qiji 西字奇跡 The Miracle of Western Words: Matteo Ricci’s Innovations in Language and Faith,” by Zhaofei Chen. (a landmark text in the history of cross-cultural communication)

Oh. Reading over what I am telling you it sounds like my former Chinese history professor would probably want to read that more than either of us. In reality, I am an oboist (with minors in a couple other instruments), a more general linguist (as in I have studied a few more languages than just Chinese) and a sketch artist.

[keplers_angels]

I'm academic-y myself. You sound so interesting. <3 Thanks for the comment and interest!

[serafaery]

I'd love to add you. I was also a heavy lj user from 2000-200?, I never stopped journaling though, I got used to the empty echo chamber of DW before others migrated over. Sine I've been in the quiet lonely dark for 10+ years, I do not regularly comment, nor do I expect others to (and honestly it weirds me out when new people do comment, like, do I know you? we have barely met! lol, but it's very kind and generous and I appreciate it), but I read voraciously all the writings.
I write fairly compulsively - sometimes multiple times a day, but sometimes I'll go a week without writing because I am too mentally unwell to even look at my thoughts - but I heavily filter my flist because I use my journal to purge extremely unhealthy thinking patterns related to cPTSD (childhood trauma) and severe clinical depression, I don't think it's emotionally safe content for most people to read. It isn't real, most of the time, it's just a trauma spiral that I'm processing. I am trying to keep up with a basic amount of public posts because of this. I am 50, childfree, a cat mom, married, in chronic pain, unconventional work and relationships and lifestyle I guess. You're welcome to kick me out if you don't like having me around, I like the way you write and it's fun, this sudden uptick in actual journalers! So I thought I'd try :)

[solstice_lilac]

I saw "LJ user from 2000" who never stopped journaling and I would like to add you, too--we may have a lot in common. My profile is a pretty good snapshot of me and while my recent entries are more or less an account of my summer journeys, I write about all things (sometimes at excessive length) and would be grateful to connect with another person close to my age (I am 56) who is also living with depression and walking an unconventional path in many ways. Thanks :)

[serafaery]

Hi, I subscribed, thank you so much! Another PNW nature lover yaaaaaaaaaay :)

[keplers_angels]

"I do not regularly comment, nor do I expect others to"

Yes, I remember. We were dreamwidth "friends" for years. One-sided friendships are exactly what I'm looking to avoid at this point. But I sincerely hope that you are well.

[serafaery]

It's good to know what you want! I hope you find it. I remember that feeling, when LJ died, of feeling so lonely and neglected and missing the back and forth of comments so so much, it's a terrible feeling of loss and I hated it. But I guess I over-corrected, and at this point, comments back and forth in brief once in a while are okay, but if they start to get long winded or regular they can cause me a lot of anxiety. I think maybe I just got too hurt by that loss, and don't want to get invested just to lose it again? I dunno. But that desire faded a long time ago. I hope you find just the right connections for you :)

[serafaery]

I think also, it takes me several months to get a feel for someone and really understand who they are and where they're coming from, and it feels weird to invest time and energy and care into replies when I don't know them at all? So I require a bit of lurking, these days. I think maybe this was from being sooooo heavily emotionally invested in several years-long friendships who then just poofed on me. It felt so painful, like, oh, actually, nobody is reading, nobody actually cares, clearly this journal is just for me and people just want pats on the back but don't have the emotional investment that I have. So it takes forever for me to build trust enough to feel comfortable enough to comment as if I have any real connection to them. I can't fake that, until I get truly familiar with someone, which takes a loooooong time for me. But that's just me, where I'm at right now. I used to just dive in head first! But got burned too many times by that, I guess. Mostly I just assume that my journal is trash and people hate it, lol, except for the 3-4 people who have actually stuck around for many years, and who chime in gently, whenever they feel inspired to, with no expectations that I have to reciprocate on any sort of schedule. I don't think either approach is right or wrong, I've done both and they both have their value. Fun to reflect on all of these changes over the years. I don't notice much if people come and go and it's gentler on my heart, that way, at this stage of my life.

[keplers_angels]

It's ok. It's all ok.
Sounds like our timing was just off.
I was invested, and interactive, in your stories and your life for a while. It felt like it wasn't reciprocal. And you don't remember me, so it obviously wasn't. We all come here for different things - feel personal connections in different ways. I'm learning to curate my list to people who show me care in the ways that I need. I have no hard feelings at all. You're welcome to stay subscribed if you want to. I post public posts sometimes.

Also complaining about the lack of rain

[solstice_lilac]

"Mostly I'm looking for my early aughts LJ experience back."

Same--and I think I feel the same as you do about writing--to make myself real. To remember what I've done, what I have felt and read and come through. I miss the old days of LJ when more of us were doing that, and connecting through it. I've made some long-term friends through LJ who are still with me here! I'd like to add you, & you are very welcome to reciprocate. I post once a week or so about all things (sometimes at length) and my commenting/reply timeliness is also about the same as yours. Thank you for introducing yourself.

Re: Also complaining about the lack of rain

[keplers_angels]

Lovely. hello. Thank you for commenting and adding me. I too have several life-long friends from LJ.

[llumdelluna]

Hi! I'm Laura, 45, from Spain. You sound like a very interesting person I'd love to read and have in my flist, but what caught my attention the most in your post is that you're looking for your early aughts LJ experience back. This is exactly why I came to DW. I missed to have a space on the itnernet where people were open and sincere, to read about real lives of people and not the blank fake posts of social media. A place where people connected and talked about feelings.

I'm active with my flist, I like to comment and read (unless something happens), and I try to keep my journal updated as well. Would you like to give it a try?

[keplers_angels]

Yes, Yay! Hullo.
There are so many of us it seems who are looking for that kind of experience again. I wish I'd known about these addme type communities earlier. I've been lonely.

[llumdelluna]

<3 Time to fix this and make some connections :)

[marycuntrarian]

"Write to make myself real." I came back to the internet after a long hiatus of never using my laptop and only ever being on my phone. I stopped watching anything or really reading stuff, I just watched youtube videos. Ever since I started writing online and interacting in forums, not just about fandom stuff but anything, I feel myself becoming more real?

I used to think I lived too much online in my 20's and maybe I did a little but it was a time when I was my most creative and open with my thoughts with so many different people. I've missed it.

That said, I think we would vibe well! Would you like to be web pals? :)

[keplers_angels]

Let's try!

[musicismylife]

Hi, I’d love to have you on my friends page. Feel free to read my intro post on here that I recently made, or check out my DW to see if you think we might get along well. If not, that’s totally fine :)

[author_by_night]

I'm looking for early aughts interaction! I will add you.