Can't end the year without doing at least ~one Year-In-Review.
Dec. 31st, 2025 01:20 pm( The Fannish Year In Review )
And with that done... I shall return in 2026, for a new season of Snowflake!
Fannish 50 2025 #50
Dec. 31st, 2025 04:58 amYear end fandom questions, found via
- Your main fandom this year?
- Your favorite film watched this year?
- Your favorite book read this year?
- Your favorite TV show of the year?
- Your best new fandom discovery of the year?
- Your biggest fandom disappointment?
- Your biggest squee moment of the year?
- The most missed of your old fandoms?
- The fandom you haven't tried yet, but want to?
- Most anticipated event for 2025?
Megamind!
Guillermo del Toro's Frankenstein.
Before the Coffee Gets Cold by Toshikazu Kawaguchi.
Leverage: Redemption
I don't know...
That the Murderbot TV adaptation became a reality.
Finding out that we have a release date for Coffee Talk Tokyo!
The Murderbot Diaries. I really miss the Discord server I was a member of, it was an oasis for me. On top of that, I haven't really poked my head into the tag since the TV adaptation was released.
Nothing specific comes to mind.
Sunshine Revival!
Fannish 50 2025 #49
Dec. 31st, 2025 04:57 amCurrently reading: Felidae by Akif Pirincci
Last book finished: If Cats Disappeared from the World by Genki Kawamura
Currently (re)watching: Gargoyles
Last
Progress on writing/art/fannish goals: Almost through with Fannish 50!
Last 3 works posted: N/A
Recent events N/A
Upcoming projects Get Your Words Out, Snowflake Challenge
New Year's Resolutions Check In
Dec. 31st, 2025 12:55 amThis year I'm trying something new, continuing to track goals at the end of each month. So far it seems to be helping, so that's encouraging. I'm looking at my goal list more often and trying to keep ticking off more of them. The main drawback is that this update becomes more of a chore each month. I have some new ideas to lighten the load for next year.
These are the previous check in posts:
New Year's Resolutions Check In January 4
New Year's Resolutions Check In January 10
New Year's Resolutions Check In January 17
New Year's Resolutions Check In January 24
New Year's Resolutions Check In January 31
New Year's Resolutions Check In February 28
New Year's Resolutions Check In March 31
New Year's Resolutions Check In April 30
New Year's Resolutions Check In May 31
New Year's Resolutions Check In June 30
New Year's Resolutions Check In July 31
New Year's Resolutions Check In August 31
New Year's Resolutions Check In September 30
New Year's Resolutions Check In October 31
New Year's Resolutions Check In November 30
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Books of 2025
Dec. 31st, 2025 03:12 amI usually do a movie list at the end of the year, too, but there hasn't been all that much I wanted to see. Rob has been to a ton of horror movies, but I only went to Cinemark with him a few times, I think - I know I saw One Battle After Another, which we both loved, and Wicked: For Good, which was not nearly as good as the first one (but wasn't bad, either) - and I'm pretty sure I saw at least a couple more things earlier in the year but I can't really remember what.
Looking back on writing this year, as the year comes to an end
Dec. 31st, 2025 09:25 amWith the end of the year in sight, I've been thinking about how writing went this year. I am, of course, not meeting my
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Also, something interesting is going to happen in 2026! Adding all my word counts from 2020 until today, the total comes to 975K. Obviously, everything could go spectacularly to shit, but based on the past few years, there's a very good chance I'm going to reach that 1 million words milestone next year. I'm a bit nervous because I started writing again in 2020 firmly with a quote in mind, something I'd heard around the lines of "everybody has 1 million bad words in them before they can get to the good ones; unfortunately the only way to get rid of them is to write them out" and that's been a source of comfort when my writing doesn't always meet the standard I hope for. What will I do if word #1,000,001 is actually pretty crap anyway, though?? Haha. My mind is already preparing "well it wasn't 1M words of novel-sized projects, so you have to keep at it anyway" etc etc, so I will probably be okay either way ;)
But still. Something to look forward to :)
2026!
Dec. 31st, 2025 03:51 amHappy New Years Eve, everyone! 2025 has been… filled with a lot of ups and downs, but it ended up being the best year of my life so far. I'm so grateful I stayed alive to see it!
In 2025, I finally started treatment for a 20-year-long treatment-resistant depression that actually worked. I had tried every widely available drug, including off-label usage, and still could only think about how much I wanted to die every day. Finally, I started a newer one, Auvelity in combination with ketamine treatment, and that's the thing that worked. Now I don't want to die! It can still be hard sometimes, but I am so, so proud of myself for hanging on and getting through it. I'm so glad I'm not 24/7 death anymore.
In 2025, I learned a goal that I have always wanted to: self-host my own websites. Goodbye Neocities! I just built my own personal website in Ruby on Rails. I self-host Archive of our Own and expanded the code to have new features. I host a bunch of different websites. I have always wanted to have the ability to do these things, but I never saw myself as capable enough to even try. A lot of this is due to encouragement from my wonderful friends—you know who you are. If you have helped, encouraged, guided, cheerleaded, or even listened to my ramblings on these silly nerd topics—thank you. Seriously.
In 2025, I found people who I trust to truly love and care for me. This is a feeling I haven't had since I was about 18. Many of my friends before were highly judgemental and mean to me--they also didn't even notice when I disappeared from my old social media accounts. (I don't have irl friends because I'm housebound lol). I feel like I have a solid group of friends now. I'm so grateful for each and every one of my friends—and for you all too even if we've never talked before!
In 2025, I got an amazing bird who I love to bits and pieces!! Gotta get her in for a nail trim. Love you, Saira.

In 2025, I wrote 127.8k words!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the most productive year of writing I have ever had. A lot of it is because I started doing fic exchanges this year, and I've had so much fun with those!!
My 2025 has been great. I hope you have all had a wonderful 2025, and will have a wonderful 2026.
Poem: "Eyes Wide, Mind Open"
Dec. 31st, 2025 12:49 am( Read more... )
Good News
Dec. 31st, 2025 12:01 amWhat good news have you had recently? Are you anticipating any more? Have you found a cute picture or a video that makes you smile? Is there anything your online friends could do to make your life a little happier?
Photo dump
Dec. 31st, 2025 02:28 amBeginning New Years
Dec. 30th, 2025 11:37 pmI had breakfast and coffee, and then showered and dressed, and then I packed for two days, including my laptop. Then I headed out to
So I took the 20 bus. It was very crowded on the bus but I did get a seat, which is good because I had my backpack, which was heavy, and my laptop bag, and my purse and I did not want to stand. Then I got the 45 from Main and Union Tpk. I got a seat on the 45 too.
Met
We had sushi of course, big surprise there. It was delicious as always. Then we took a Lyft to Michaels and did some shopping. I got a picture frame for the picture of me and Middle Brother that I had printed out.
We went to Staples and to Trader Joes, and then we took a Lyft back. it was after 7:00 then , so I got ready for my meeting (the reason why I specifically brought the laptop.) At 8:00 I signed in, but no one showed up. I thought that might happen, so I wasn't really surprised. So I waited til 8:10, then got off and Teamed the FWiB while
We talked for about an hour, then got off. After that,
And that's about all the day. Soon I will finish here and get ready for bed.
Gratitude List:
1. The FWiB.
2. The weather was chilly but clear.
3. Sushi.
4. Got a frame for the picture.
5. My meetings, even when no one shows, I tried.
6. Having known
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Dec. 30th, 2025 11:24 pmOh, 2025! Farewell~
Dec. 31st, 2025 12:08 amAll in all, I persisted perhaps out of dumb sheer luck or 'cause I'm totally rad and awesome. Whichever the case, the end of this year promises to be a little nicer to me. While I don't wanta get ahead of myself, I believe I might make the most of my comin' year.
I've got some small, personal goals that I have no issues voicin', only 'cause I know I might wanta look back at it and scope out what has changed from when I wrote this little note into the 'net and all.
The thing is this: I want to get a console. A playstation 2! So I can play both PS1 and PS2 games, but I still hafta iron out the kinks like "where in the fuckin' hell am I going to nab some ps2 games when my town has moved past 'em?" and worse, I still have to figure out where to find or buy a TV for the machine. Eh, I'll find out when I get there. For that, I need space, time and money. Three things I don't have!
Secondly, I want to buy a skateboard. Learn how to use one, sure, but I'm certainly interested more 'bout flatground tricks, 'cause those are way too cool and radical --- helps too because there's not a lot of space necessary for 'em. I thought of maybe dedicatin' a day or two a week to practicin' those tricks. Coupled up with my dancin' habits I might just get myself pretty fit. Best part, too, I would become COOLER. My issues would be, mostly, on space and... well, findin' a proper skateboard. Maybe I will hafta give in and ask some of the skater dudes at the park to give me pointers, and while I have no problems askin' I am very embarrassed of showin' my baby steps to strangers. Again, I'll find out when I get there.
Silly goals for the next year, aren't they? Well, who cares! A girl's gotta have some childish dreams keepin' her going right? Well, that's about as much as I want to say. 2025, you've surely been one of the years of all time.
Now scram, will ya? I've got important schemes to plan for the comin' era!
Rec-Cember 2025 Day 30: Miscellaneous Fics [61]
Dec. 30th, 2025 10:33 pmAnd here are the last 61 fics across 42 fandoms that I’ve bookmarked! (aside from the overflow lists, ofc)!
( Fic Recs Here! )Classical Concert
Dec. 19th, 2025 10:31 pmHello, Dear Readers. Here are the musical pieces for today. Yes, I said pieces. This is literally a concert in which DB is performing! Since we both wrote a lot, I won't add anything else to this.
( Thoughts on Concert Pieces )
things that I have signed up for, so I don't forget!
Dec. 30th, 2025 07:58 pm1.
I signed up for the lowest habit goal. I'm still not sure I will write all that much, but I'd like to, at the very least, finish my WIPs, and having SPREADSHEETS! will likely help with that. I've joined the discord and requested access to the group, so now we just wait to start.
2. The Story Graph's January Pages Challenge
I've long complained of a lack of reading. I'd like to read more, both to expand my horizons and just for fun. The Pages challenge sounds perfect for me: the goal is just one page a day. I think I can manage that!
3.
No signups necessary, but I'll likely be doing this again.
Restlessness
Dec. 30th, 2025 07:18 pmI also notice when I'm exercising, my mind is always a mess just as it is during menial tasks like cooking and washing my dishes.
Someone on Facebook agreed to buy a clock I put up for sale on Facebook and I'm scheduled to meet him Thursday morning, but I have a long history of getting ghosted and hope he doesn't flake out.
I had a cigar after lunch since the weather is warmer at noon, and I have the sweater the Fairview soup kitchen allowed me to have and that kept me warm. I did order new thin gloves on Amazon, though.
I'm trying to soak beans so I can try making bean soup again for a few dinners and have tons of canned pinto and black beans from food pantries, so we'll see how that peters out.
I defrosted and cut up hot dogs to fry for dinner and had them with a box of mac and cheese, having gotten both from food pantries as well, and they were okay but not great.
I discovered that the Kova app can have background music in addition to its AI audiobooks, so I turned it on for Five Nights at Reggie's and it enhances the experience.
I missed a text from my bitch mom this late afternoon asking if I had gotten my $200 Amazon gift card because I "didn't say anything," and I used all my gift card money. I'm really sick of her asking retarded questions like that and hope she dies so I don't have to deal with dumb shit like that ever again.
Anyway...

The top left is the Google Gemini reference image I made, the second the sketch in the same sketchbook I kept since I started high school in 1998, the third the sloppily "enhanced" version through Leonardo AI, and the fourth the much better enhancement via Google Gemini. I think it turned out well and may try something like that again.
Whatever. I'll try to get to bed early. My sleep cycle is really fucked up.
