hello DW-users! May I join with my ego trip?

[gothicangel]

Name: I go by Angel (because this is what I wish to be...)

Age: an eternity. I do remember pre-social media Internet, though I am stuck on the level of a wounded teen.Probably never will grow up.

I mostly post about: how depressed and alienated I feel. Trying to add some photography, or talking about more interesting stuff than that.

My hobbies are: learning and teaching music; singing; guitar; contemplating suicide but never acting on my fantasies about it; reading; writing and receiving letters (penpalling freaks are more than welcome!); mycology; plants; languages

My fandoms are: now, I am really unsure of what is considered to be a fandom. I like a plethora of things, artists and authors but there are very few of them I am actually a fan of. I do love baroque music, old-fashioned metal and romantic/sentimental gothic/doom/symphonic metal.

I'm looking to meet people who: are likeminded, preferably darkly inclined (because of me being a sad, poseur goth-wannabe) - hey, we don't need to be each others' clones but having some common interests, favourites and attitudes is always good!

My posting schedule tends to be: try to do my best in aim to update at least once a week!

When I add people, my dealbreakers are: any kind of hate ideology, negative prejudices, generalizing, snobbery/elitism/superiority, alt-right, supporting war and/or capital punishment, religious fanatism, ignorance, sexism, idolizing neo-nazi murderers or serial killers (does this make me very picky?)

Before adding me, you should know:
I could probably get the diagnose of avoidant personality disorder, so I am having extremely hard times when reaching out to people.
I can tell fantasy from reality, but I spend most of my time in an idealistic, immaterial fantasy world.
I am asexual and love being androgynous (I would describe it as having a really significant Jeanne d'Arc complex). Involved in a hetero-romantic relationship.
I don't think my problems would make me special or grant me the right to be entitled to special treatment. Quite the contrary. They make me more open to others' difficulties and I try my best to understand others (with various success of course). I know I am far from being the only one having severe problems.
I don't actually believe in angels, vampires, magic(k), gods or anything like this but I do find the symbolism very interesting and inspiring.
My journal is a safe place for anyone suffering from depression, anxiety, being a survivor of bullying or discrimination.
I am absolutely for nonviolence; never eating animals' bodies, or anything taken from animals. I would gladly live on nothing but air and light if it was possible!

To be completely honest, I don't really get animanga, K-pop or J-rock fandoms but I do understand how much they mean to certain people :) The same goes for Harry Potter fanfics pairing the most impossible characters with each other. I see how fascinating this is - for many people, it's just not really my kind of thing - I hope this does not make me a horrible, detestable person :)

Comments

[ejames]

Welcome to Dreamwidth! I wouldn't sat that I am particularly darkly but I do struggle with depression and share my photography just like you have. I also do not get the animanga, K-pop/J-rock or fandoms in general aside from the pleasure that comes from reading fiction and around here our flavour of folks need to stick together me thinks.

[gothicangel]

Many thanks for your kind reply! Have added you back :)

[ejames]

Thank you! I look forward to reading your journal and photography. ;-)

[moonscented]

Hey, we seem to have quite a bit in common. I'm an older millennial who's also mentally a wounded teen and probably will never grow up, not that I mind that last part haha. I also feel chronically depressed and alienated, struggle with avoidant personality disorder and a lot of maladaptive daydreaming. I enjoy metal music and gothic subculture as well, and have a strong interest animal and environmental ethics. Feel free to add me if interested!

[gothicangel]

Hello there, thank you for your kind answer! We really seem to have a few things in common, yeah :)
Have just checked your pro, adding you if you don't mind :)

[ihearviolins]

I can relate a lot to the depression and living in a fantasy world. I'm also into the symbolism of magic, gods, and so on. I'd be happy to add you, if you'd like!

[gothicangel]

Many thanks! Please do feel free to add me! :)

[ihearviolins]

Added now!