posting since i changed usernames!

[pill]

Name: bailey, bai, bay, or any other nickname you'd like to call me.

Age:

i've been feeling ALL the feelings since 6/8/1990. so; 32.

Sidenote: if these kinds of things matter to you, i am an ENFP & a gemini sun, sag moon, and aquarius rising. i am also pansexual - i believe in falling in love with a soul rather than a gender... i'm a vegetarian. i have stage 4 kidney failure and the doctors cannot figure out WHY (they think it might be autoimmune or due to my traumatic pregnancy/birth and having COVID during my last trimesters.. but it's a journey i'm on for answers.) thankfully, i am at a point where i am stabilized and can probably last this way for a long while before needing a transplant or dialysis *fingers crossed, though* ♥

I mostly post about:

whatever i'm feeling in that moment. i love to write, so it mostly comes out in poetry, prose, lists or playlists, photos, cryptic subliminal posts, or sometimes posting about my day like a normal person. i post a lot about my son, as i'm a first time mom. but overall, my journal is just a catch-all for me feelin' too many feelings at all times, always. it's a safe space for me, and can be a safe space for you too!

My hobbies are:

you're welcome to browse my interests in my bio if you'd like or i'll just tell ya i'm into writing, reading, music, painting, journaling (both online, and hand-written; i'm currently very into bullet journaling), astrology, any form of art, houseplants, gardening, skateboarding, surfing, anything involving nature, hiking, camping, concerts, road trips, long deep talks, beading/bracelet making, thrifting, the sims 4, anything true crime or anything high strangeness (missing 411, aliens, cryptozoology, creepy, dark, mysterious, etc.), hair and makeup (i am professionally licensed to do both: i love making others feel beautiful and confident in their own skin), animals, playing any stringed instrument, psychology and how people's mind's work and why they do what they do, and many more things that i cannot think of right now, i'm sure. again, my bio is as full as the character limit would allow because i just love so many thinggggs.

My fandoms are:

i'm not part of any "fandoms" (no hate if you are, and i don't mind being friends with anyone who is~) - tbh, i don't really know what fandoms do/are for... i mean, i'm a "fan" of stuff... but like, not in an actual... fandom. but again, i welcome anyone and everyone to be friends! i think it's a beautiful thing in life to be passionate about things.

I'm looking to meet people who:

i want to meet people who are passionate, welcoming, funny, weird, quirky, kind, emotional, sad, people who are interested in the same things as me, people who aren't like me at all, those who would like to be friends, -- basically no matter if you're like me or not, if you want to be friends, i'm down. regardless of your background, life, and history, regardless if we have things in common, i am so interested in people in general, and reading whatever they decide to put out there on their little corner of the internet. i love finding others who understand the beauty and nostalgia of keeping an online journal and the era of internet that WAS "that time"...

My posting schedule tends to be: daily/weekly/monthly/sporadic/etc

it's sporadic - but i try to not go for tooTOO long in between entries.

When I add people, my dealbreakers are:

just being unkind and spreading unnecessary hate. that's really all i can think of. no matter who you are, i am not here to make your journey on this rock floating in space any more complicated than it has to be - and i don't tolerate that from others. i will never bully anyone else, so i don't expect you to bully me or anyone else. just be a good human, that's all. it shouldn't have to be said, but ✘ do not add me if you are down with racism, homophobia, or any type of bigotry or beliefs supporting inequality in any capacity. this is a safe space for me, and it will remain a safe space for anyone on my fl.

Before adding me, you should know: i am a very open-minded person who posts whatever is on my mind. i don't censor any feeling i have. expect honesty from me about my life and what i feel and think. i've been diagnosed with ADHD and bipolar (specifically type 2), and i am a recovering addict with years time under my belt at this point. i just love to meet people where they're at in life and offer them encouragement, validation, and love. i am 420 friendly, and can't wait to see what cannabis as well as certain hallucinogenics can do for medicine in our future. i really hope the stigma around addiction and mental health won't steer anyone away - but if it does, then i don't think we were meant to cross paths in the first place. i don't tend to get into politics or religion; but i will go ahead and let you all know that i lean to the more liberal side of things. i am also more spiritual than i am religious or into organized religion. i do not mind anyone who has opposing beliefs and will only show love to everyone, everywhere. i accept people for who they are, as they come. i think everyone is so beautifully unique in their own ways and i am always welcoming anyone who wants to be friends! ♥

Comments

[ryanf]

I think we would get along. Added you!

[kissapentu]

Hey! I think we could become good friends. Adding you.

[verchielmarch]

Sounds like we could be friends! I started off anticipating talking more about lord of the rings but I ended up mostly becoming a journaling dreamwidth. You can take a look at my page and add me if youd like! :)

[halfinlove]

i'm an infp who would love to read your poetry, prose and cryptic subliminal posts so adding you :)

[pill]

this is actually perfect!
i am loving your username & layout (gotta love the generator layout forever for nostalgia purposes ♡)

i will definitely be adding you back, and i can't wait to get to know one another more. we have a lot of the same interests; i checked your bio. haha!

[halfinlove]

it's the only layout i like lol. i'm so glad i was able to get it for dreamwidth bc i don't really like the layout options here.

i can't wait to read your stuff and get to know you more too! it's hard to find other xnfps sometimes :)

[pill]

i love it so much myself! definitely have it saved for sure. sometimes i just am in the mood for good ole classic generator.

i am so excited to be friends too! i usually have more writing and stuff going on in my journal, but i've been suffering from extreme writer's block. all my old entries are put under lj-cuts though on this account and you're welcome to go back and read all of my poems and prose.

i am praying to the writing gods that they lift this curse of having writer's block that i've had for months. we shall see, i guess. lmao. ♡

[pill]

PS: i didn't know ~nfps were hard to come by. it was a more recent thing i did where i took the test because i was so interested to see what i was. i think it fits me perfectly, to say the least.

[pill]

perfect! you would get along very very very well with my fiance, because he is literally obsessed with LOTR. i cannot wait to tell him i've got a new journal friend who could talk with him about it for hours! hahaha!

i love making journal friends of all kinds, with all sorts of differing interests, so thank you for adding me! i am totally adding you back! ♡

PS: i saw that you play the sims. i am OBSESSED with the sims and we can talk about that for 548759437 years. it seems like we are going to get along well.

[halfinlove]

i've only posted like four entries myself and am also suffering from writer's block so i feel you but i'm hoping to pish through it somehow haha. and i'll definitely check out some of your older entries!

[halfinlove]

yeah e/infps aren't the most common personality type which is why we can tend to feel so misunderstood. at least i know i do but we're also not the MOST rare. that title belongs to infjs.

[pill]

huh, that's very interesting and i'm glad you've taught me something! i really love learning about people's brains and their personalities and why we are the way we are, etc. so i get really into anything that attempts to teach us a little about ourselves.

[pill]

sounds great to me! thank you so much ♡ maybe our writer's block can leave at the same time and we will both start writing NOVELS without ever having the issue again. fingers crossed, or whatever. lmao

[halfinlove]

omg that would be amazing. i can only imagine how amazing that would be. maybe i just need to give myself mini prompts to do and not worry about how good it is.

[halfinlove]

same! i think all xnfps enjoy that to some extent haha. just part of our nature i guess, the Fi and Ne.

[pill]

honestly, i could stand to do the same thing.
i've always wanted to find someone else who enjoys writing so we can come up with prompts to give one another and then write about them regardless of what the prompt is... like for writing exercise, etc.

if you ever wanna try something like that, let me know! i'd be so down.

[halfinlove]

i think it would be fun to just take one word or a theme and try writing something short about it... (a poem or story or whatever), or long if you just can't stop once you start lol.

[pill]

yes!!!! even something like that would be awesome. i like the creative freedom of that and how it could go any way we think about it or however we interpret that word. that sounds great. we should totally do it sometime, whenever you're up for it! we can like, trade words back and forth and just give like a time frame of however many days or whatever - and then we write them and finish them by that set date or whatever.

[pill]

awesome! i poked around your journal and looked at your interests, and i think you're right! we will probably get along super well, and have a good bit in common from the looks of it. ♡

[pill]

hey, awesome! i added you back and i can't wait to get to know one another more. side note: i am OBSESSED with the fact that you have a pitty named Gaia ♡ that's so perfect. one of my dogs is a rescue pitty/boxer mix, and he's my world.

[ryanf]

I understand the feeling! Gaia is my bestie. Can't wait to get to know you!

[halfinlove]

yeah i like that idea! i found this 100 one word writing prompt website. we can choose a couple words from there and try writing something to do with them.

https://www.journalbuddies.com/journal-prompts-writing-ideas/one-word-prompts/

[verchielmarch]

i LOVE the sims!! did you see the new infant update??

[pill]

I DID.
i haven't played sims in quite a while personally, at this point. i need to do a massive clean slate because the amount of CC i have is rather insane. i wish it could be easier to go through and clean things out - kinda like cleaning out your closet, i guess... but cleaning out the CC folder. it's just like impossible to remember or know what each thing is when you have thousands upon thousands of CC items.

i loveeeeeeee the new infant thing! since i haven't played in a while due to having a toddler, etc. i just watch a ton of other people on YouTube play sims. i also get really into storylines of things - like Claire S. and her series thingies she does. love her. ♡

[kraken_galactico]

Hi! We seem to have common interests, are close in age, & share some similar beliefs as well. Adding you :]

[pill]

hi! i actually added you back + saw you added me prior to reading this comment. i noticed how much we really do have in common... and i am so excited to get to know one another better! i think we are going to get along super well. ♥

thank you for adding me and reaching out!

xx

[pill]

as she should be! i am excited to be friends on here with another dog lover. especially someone with a pibble baby. ♥ sorry for being so late to respond to this comment. my ADHD rages on me sometimes and i become a scattered mess. lol!

[pill]

this is a wonderful idea! i am so sorry it took me forever to reply. my ADHD kicks me in the booty sometimes. hahaha. i would love to do this, though!! i've always wanted to find an online friend to do this with for years. so this is perfect. maybe soon we can start our first little side project doing it!

[ryanf]

No worries! I am similar - I always flag the comment/reply notifications in my inbox and respond eventually, but sometimes it takes me a while (like today) before I have a chance to sit down and catch up. Have a great week!

[pill]

thank goodness you understand the struggle. haha!
thank you for this. i hope you have had an amazing weekend and an even better upcoming week!